I’m working on a hat for my sweet hubby bubby. It’s my first time to knit a hat and I’m pretty excited. My hubby is very excited to have a new hat, so that keeps me motivated. It’s wobbly and has lots of mistakes, but he doesn’t mind at all. I do mind, but I keep going because I don’t want to give up on this project. So I’m learning to “see” the mistakes and figure out how to fix them so I can keep going instead of just tearing it all out.
I’m finally starting to enjoy knitting. It’s been a couple of years now since I first started learning. I’m self taught with the help of books and videos, and it hasn’t come easily or naturally. It felt so awkward at first (and still does at times). My shoulders would tense up from trying to hold everything just right without loosing my stitches…both metaphorically and literally. Finally, though, I’m starting to get the hang of it. Yes, I know practice makes perfect. But sometimes practice is painful and frustrating and leads to hiding it away in a basket.
I have only ever finished one other project…a scarf made for my mum last Christmas. (That one survived because it was very fuzzy yarn and hid every mistake.) Everything else got ripped out. Over and over again, I started project after project with hope that this one would look like it was “supposed to” but always ended with a big, depressing undo. I couldn’t even watch a show about knitting for a while because I was so frustrated by the whole thing.
But I kept going back. Trying again. Wanting to make something that took the shape it was supposed to. And now it’s starting to. Just a little. But just enough to keep me going.
I’m working on a hat with a ribbed band. I got the pattern from the Knitty Gritty Archieves.
I’m learning patience and perseverance with knitting, and I’m very grateful. With this project in particular, I’m learning to let go of the need for perfection and to embrace imperfections. My husband having a warm head is over-ruling my need for it (and me) to be perfect and so I just keep going. I’ve found that, sometimes, that’s all I’ve got. Just keep going and keep trying to do better. Fix what I can and leave the rest alone.